A Pocket Full of Murder

A repository of boring things in my everyday life

A letter to myself


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To all the years you’ve spent your life wondering why everything is always so unfair. Wondering why all the good deeds you’ve worked hard are always kept unappreciated, while a single misstep could cost you a life. Keep it that way. The world is never perfectly round. Let alone you can live in perfect harmony with everyone around you. The world reeks of human selfishness and there is no escape from this kind of hell. You can only face it, grow thick hides to guard yourself, learn to live with it but never become too oblivious and fall into ignorance. I’ve seen you live through life even after the star you worship so bad has fallen. I’ve seen you live through all the bullshit of life and survived. You’ll live through it again a thousand times more. Just remember:

You are a wolf. An outcast, a vagabond, and faction-less. For all the reasons your pack left you because you are of no use to them, you find greed and selfishness in society. You wander alone because you knew you can never fully rely on anyone. You are not afraid to live your life in solitude. You have teeth and claws to fend for yourself after all.

You are an owl. An observant, a hermit, and a careful one. All the years spent perched aloft with eyes wide open, you’ve grown to avoid undesirable beings around you. You’ve learned to distinguish ignorance and naivety. You never judge at first glance, but based on their actions and careful consideration about their behavior.

You are a viper. Calm, buried, and patient. You bare your fangs at the sight of territorial invasion. Whenever you are stepped on,  you never hesitate to sink those fangs into the bastard’s foot and let your toxins finish the job. Never let them step on you first. You are always faster than a heavy boot.

You are the wolf, the strix, and the viper. Independent, wise, and patient. You never hate, but you never forget. Stand with pride, keep your eyes open, and never let your guard down. You’ll live through everything.

And one last thing.

There is good despite all the cruelty of life. Just be patient.

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Mean Spirits

I noticed… My posts are becoming more and more darker lately. But that’s nothing to worry about. It’s not like I’m gonna kill myself anytime soon. And that’s not gonna happen. At all!

I just finished re-reading my previous posts up to the present ones ( courtesy of insomnia). I realized that I became angry at myself over nothing! I’m angry at my current state, angry about the changes that affected me, angry at the world that’s totally unfair, angry at everyone else because of lousy reasons, angry that nobody’s here for me to cry-wolf on their shoulders. It’s like a kick to head when it hit me. A sudden realization that all those stupid shit are not even worth the “feels to be angry”. In fact, I should be grateful. Grateful that I’m still alive, or just barely breathing.

It seems that I took for granted all the things that represent who I really am, things that made me, and the places I belong to. As I have noticed in my blog, I used to be all fun and awesome before. Then the great and wonderful me suddenly disappeared just because of a little shift in the cycle of life’s ass. I started to cry like a pathetic baby with a days-full shit in his diapers. I kinda forgotten that I’ve gone through worse shit before, and I survived. And even worse worse shit a couple of years ago, and I also survived (Thanks for the beautiful scars). And all those load of crap made me who I am. Stronger, resilient, smarter, and got a shitload of jealous haters for whatever reason they’re jealous of. And now, I cry over a problem as little as stepping on chicken poop. Where I could just wipe my shoes on someone else’s face and move along (just kidding. I’ll probably wipe it on a tree bark or something). I just realized that this little “change” in my life is nothing compared to the obstacles I went though before. All I have to do is face it, accept it, and move along with it. I should be stronger now, not weaker. And that awesome “me” is still here and it’s being supressed by fears and doubts about the uncertainty of the future. I just have to remember that I survived a buttload of crap before. This thing is nothing worse and I can handle this shit.

It may not be now, but I’m working on it. Little by little. Step by step.

Lemons and Space Dinosaurs

And again. It’s been a long time since I opened this little pocket of mine. I kinda broke my promise to keep updating this blog, but promises are made to be prolonged. This time, I got a reason why I should update this boring little pocket… Productivity!!

The thing that I feared before came true. My client ditched me, I’m a little bit jobless for months, got so many job applications yet most of them ignored, I got into interviews then nothing. I must be experiencing the midlife crisis everyone is talking about and it’s giving a toll on me. I got too much free time, everyone’s busy with themselves, and I feel so irrelevant right now. I don’t know if anyone feels the same if they encounter a problem like mine. Too much free time made me insecure and pessimistic. I just feel so left out. It’s like I wanted the world to know that I still exist and I long for more attention. I don’t know where to put myself anymore and I feel like I don’t have a room in other people’s life. I tried to make myself busy like finding a new hobby, read more books, roam around the city alone while finding job postings. But the fact that I am still jobless and got nothing else to do while everyone is busy with whatever they do made all those things useless.

Anyway, I didn’t write this post just to rant about my little insecurities. I just wanted to let whoever-is-unfortunate-enough-to-waste-time-reading-my-post know how my little world is going on right now. I’m still okay. I still got that terrifying reign of losing in DoTA. And I still got DoTA to keep my world shut and ignore all the silly things in my life. I think of DoTA as a midlife-crisis mitigator. It makes me stop worrying about anything but winning the game. And I got a bunch of wonderful teammates to swear on.

Anyhow. I’m still struggling to fix my current state. I’m unproductive and kinda useless right now. Even my brain won’t function properly. It took me all night just to make some words for this blog. I don’t know how long I’m gonna feel this way, but I’m hoping everything will be better soon. Hopefully.

And nope. No dinosaurs here.

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Book(s) Review: The Gentleman Bastards Sequence 1-3 by Scott Lynch

It’s been quite a while since I promised to post a book review on this blog. Even though a couple of days turned into a couple of weeks, a promise is a promise. Here it is, a butt-load of books in one review.

I first saw this series as a recommendation from Goodreads. Courtesy of psychic robots crawling the site, reading your mind for stuff that you like and recommends you a book that exactly suits your taste. Seriously, I have no idea how they did that. The only thing that matter is that I’m immediately drawn to the series the first time I read the book. It’s made of seven books but only three is out as for now. Scott Lynch is one of my favorite authors now. Here’s why:

Since this is a fantasy novel, I’ll break down the reviews into different categories because it’s hard to point out everything on this book without giving any plot spoilers while trying to avoid them as much as possible. As for the summary, Goodreads provides such sweet info.

Characters
One thing I love about the series are the characters. They are easy to like and the first time they got introduced, you’ll immediately grow attached to them. Bad or Good. Lynch really did a great job with each one’s personality. Especially with the main characters. Funny, witty, and smart. Not to mention the casual sarcasms and antics. It’s a guarantee that you’ll have a good laugh every chapter. Just don’t get too attached to them.

World
Another praise for such fresh imagination from Lynch. Since this won’t give any plot spoiler. The world is wide and well constructed. It’s like a medieval Italy but with remnants of architecture called Elderglass. Built by the the former occupants of their world they call the Eldren, an ancient race that created the indestructible Elderglass but they disappeared long before humans ever set foot on their world. The reason is unknown. They also also believe in gods. Yes, and they worship twelve gods. Magic also exist in this world but is very expensive, and feared by those who do not possess it. People can acquire a magician like a mercenary but he must be filthy rich to afford even just a day of service. That’s one thing I like in a fantasy novel, that magic cannot be easily accessed and are no joke in this world.

Plot
If you read the summary on any one of the books, you might say that the plot is simple and linear. But with the twists and turns, and tension that slowly builds up while the story progresses. Then suddenly all hell breaks loose and everything the characters worked for melted faster than a marshmallow on a torch. That’s where the book is impossible to put down. Even you as reader will be surprised at the outcome of the story that’s different from what you have expected. But everything’s gonna pay off in the end.

All I can say that this is a really good set of fantasy novels. I highly recommend reading this series. It’s not as dark and serious as the other books with the same genre, but the world is new and original. There are a few laughs along the way but that what makes the series more enjoyable.

Not just the plot, but the characters are smart and funny. What I also like is that people in this world have different cultures and that particular culture affects their daily lives. The three books so far takes place in three different places with distinct cultures and characteristics. And Scott Lynch never failed to familiarize us to the new world introduced with each book.

I enjoyed reading all three books. Truth is, I just finished book three yesterday and I can’t wait for the fourth one to be released.

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*note – Uhhhhhh. I’m one lucky bastard to find all three books in a book sale. At a really cheap price. Secondhand, but who cares?! I’m so happy since these kind of books are almost non-existent on regular bookstores (smell the brand new paper!). I first found book one while I was already halfway on my Ebook reader, and same on the second book. The third was that, there’s a stray paperback edition I found on a book store and I was forced to buy it. Then two days later when I went to a book sale, I found a hardbound version of the third book. That made me cringe.

Went to hell and back then back again

I’m back from the dead, or so it seems.

It’s been a good five months since I dropped some junk on this side of my pocket. And this is the first chunk of junk I’ve ever written in five months. I’ve been quite busy being one of hell’s tormentor and I quite enjoyed it a little; Making babies cry, Pissing off clients that don’t pay in time (As a result, I lost a month worth of pay. Glorious!),  playing dress-up-your-hero on Dota2, going out on dates with my lovey-dovey Darlyn, and I lost most of my free time working as a freelance web developer. But seriously, all the changes in my working schedule as a web programmer took a huge toll on my daily routine. All I do these five months is work all night then sleep in the morning, wake up in the afternoon, do some household chores, then work again. I gained weight again and I feel like a sack of potatoes thrown in the Arab desert to be pissed on by camels.

My working pattern is a mess, and in even more messy right now because my personal computer broke after five years of loyal service and as a result, I am unable to work for my client.

The shitty thing is that the client’s payment is already a month behind so I got no money to buy a new rig. And the shittiest thing of all is that I can’t work and I received my delayed salary a month after my PC broke. Well, at least I got paid;  after so many promises that I’ll get paid in an hour or two; and after a month of bugging them about my payment day after day because they are not responding to me and that scared me. I was beginning to think that they turned ninjas on me and I will be forced to look for another client and start over again. But they might. One of these days. The way we treat each other now, it’s likely to happen.

Anyway. All the changes in my lifestyle takes some getting used to, and I’m planning to revive this blog again. I’ve been sitting around and thinking of whatever crap I could throw in this pocket. I also read a lot of books in the five month span of inactivity, so I might post some book reviews in the coming days.

Also, Darlyn and I travel occasionally and dine a lot on different restaurants for her blog. So as for my own criticism about these money suckers not going to be wasted, I will be conducting my own special review of the places we visited here on my blog. It will be on a new category. And it will be a “very honest” review.

As for my case, and for anyone who cares or is ever reading my blog. I’m okay. I’m still happy. In fact, here’s a photo of me and Darlyn :).

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Sometimes, I Suck

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Well here we are again, It’s always such a pleasure.

What if sometimes could happen at least once in my lifetime?

Sometimes, I feel so alone that I wished myself living a different person. A rockstar maybe. Or a gazzillionaire who can buy lots’a love and the entire planet Jupiter.

Sometimes, I wish I was born a pampered panda in a zoo. Dozing off, being fed on a regular basis… Protected… The biggest problem I would only have is how to deal with my iced watermelon in just a minute. Such novelties for these fuzzy creatures.

Sometimes, I wish that I’m abducted by space aliens, taken to their home planet, given free citizenship there and start a new happy life. Free of earth problems

Sometimes, I wish that some radioactive spaghetti would cause me to mutate into some huge lobster-shaped monster. Then I will happily destroy towns and cities, breath super-powered-rainbow-colored bubble beams on it’s denizens. Then some superhero would battle me and tell me that destroying stuff is bad. I don’t know the reason why because I’m only a single minded creature and diet of humans is what I only think of. And we became friends in the end.

Sometimes, I wished that cats would think like dogs.

Sometimes, I want to be emotionally balanced.

Sometimes, I wish everyone would be happy around me.

Sometimes, I wish my psychic powers would disappear.

Sometimes, I get so scared of dying. I want to do everything I wished for. But the sad reality of life is that not everyone gets all they want. Humans don’t last long. If I could severe my strings to mortal life, then that would be the time I raise my middle finger in front of Death. That’s kinda nice to think.

Sometimes, I wish myself gone. But I’m scared of being forgotten. Even for a second.

My 101 Favorite things

I’ve been quite busy recently so I haven’t posted a proper blog post for quite some time. This is some silly random stuff I found while scouring the internet. Just a simple list of 101 favorite things to brag about.  Replaced some of them because they’re somewhat irrelevant to my current life. So cheers!

I wish I could put some photos on some of the numbers here. But I figured it’s kinda exhausting to do that. Anyways, have a photo of happy llamas!

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1. Favorite pet I ever had – My spitz Bimbo (poor chap died of heat stroke)
2. Favorite car I’ve owned – My GT3 collectible toy car from a local gasoline station. Can’t afford to buy a real one.
3. Favorite meal out, ever – Cheezy Bacon Mushroom Champ!!
4. Favorite food I’ve cooked – My pink Spaghetti. Makes you forget your name.
5. Favorite food from childhood – Kimi ice cream cup with free collectible toys.
6. Favorite drink on a hot summer day (include event) – Mango Shake!
7. Favorite drink on a cold winter night (include event) – Mango Shake!
8. Favorite conversation I’ve ever had with a person – Sharing life stories with my girlfriend Darlyn.
9. Favorite total meal that I cook (list all items) – Mostly pastas, too many variations. And some recipes I found on the internet.
10. Favorite movie of all time – The Never Ending Story!!
11. Favorite book of all time – Eric by Terry Pratchett
12. Teacher who changed my life, and why – Ms. Barcena, my guidance counselor. She let me go after she caught me drunk and on a trance outside our campus just a day before high school graduation.
13. Professional mentor who changed my life, and why – Mom, because mom.
14. Favorite item category to go shopping for with a girlfriend – Books!
15. Perfect day out: what, where, with whom – Food Trip, Bacolod, Darlyn 🙂
16. Favorite color – Dark Purple
17. Favorite artist – Staind
18. Favorite song – How About You by Staind
19. The best paid entertainment I’ve ever seen – Iron Man 3
20. Favorite hobby activity that makes me get lost for hours – Drawing 🙂
21. Most rewarding time I’ve ever spent volunteering – Cooking for someone
22. The most exciting secret I’ve ever been told – One of my high school buddy is gay.
23. My greatest skill (past or current) – Psychic Powers
24. The best advice I’ve ever been given – “Keep calm and carry on”
25. The best advice I’ve ever given – “Do unto others before others will do unto you”
26. The year of the best birthday I ever had… and why – 2001. My mom took me to a Jurassic Park movie.
27. The coolest natural wonder I’ve ever seen – When my poop turned green for unknown reason.
28. The most fun road trip I ever took… where and with whom – Bacolod City, with Darlyn.
29. The nearest close call I’ve ever had – Being choked near-death after swallowing a rambutan seed.
30. My favorite flower purchased – Purple Malaysian Mums
31. My favorite flower or plant personally grown – My cactus when I was still in high school. Died of drowning.
32. My best hair day ever? – When my head got clean shaven after a barber shop disaster.
33. The most favorite gift I’ve ever gotten. What and from whom? – A BT-X action figure with horse.  Santa.
34. My most suspenseful moment – Removing the bandages on my “Flappy Bird” after circumcision.
35. My most unexpected achievement? – Finishing six cheeseburgers with two large cokes and an extra large fries as lunch while playing World of Warcraft.
36. The most rewarding volunteer experience I’ve had – Joining a Sadsad march as part of school activity during Dinagyang Festival. Jolly Sunburns.
37. My favorite paid employment, ever – While working for Darren and Wayne. Cheers chaps!
38. The favorite dessert I’ve ever eaten – Mango Float!
39. The prettiest natural landscape I’ve ever seen – Mountain -_-
40. The most scared I’ve been by a bug or critter – Worms! Worms! Worms!
41. My favorite household chore – Sleeping
42. The favorite piece of jewelry I’ve ever bought for myself – A cheap ass sturdy metal ring that I can use as a bottle opener (tricky). 10 pesos only.
43. The best cup of coffee I’ve ever had – Madge’s home-brewed coffee!
44. The hardest question a child has ever asked me – Where do babies come from?
45. The most important time I’ve had to “be there” for a friend – When he collapsed from too much beer. I had to be there to take a picture as a reminder.
46. The most unusual pet I’ve ever had – Tarantula
47. The prettiest shiny object I’ve ever owned – Thumb Tacks.
48. The most treasured book in my library – The Illustrated Eric by Terry Pratchett
49. The most important tool in my craft/ hobby stuff – Scizzorz!
50. The coolest handmade gift I ever gave anyone – Panda Pepakura! I gave it to Darlyn :3
51. The best anonymous thing I have ever done/given – Playing as Anon on the internetssss.
52. The most healthy and vital time in my life was/is? – The time beer entered my life.
53. The worst thing I ever got away with – Shooting streetlights with a slingshot.
54. The kindest thing a stranger ever did for me – Ignoring me.
55. The kindest thing I ever did for a stranger? – Ignoring him/her.
56. Favorite perfume – Penshoppe Boy
57. Favorite household cleaner smell – Pines. Lol
58. Favorite outdoor smell – The combination of animal dung, rotting trees, grass, morning dew, livestock, hay. In short, the countryside.
59. Most fun I ever had on a Saturday night? – After our college prom. We drank and sang on the karaoke till 5am, then play Dota afterwards before having any breakfast.
60. Favorite song I ever danced to and with whom? – Mambo Number 5 with some unknown junior chick during high school prom.
61. Favorite dinner my mom made – Scrambled eggs for dinner! yay!
62. The happiest moment I can remember – When my sister stepped on cow poop while playing outside our house.
63. Song that makes me move no matter how bad I feel? – Love is Life by Strata.
64. My favorite patriotic experience? – Lip syncing on our National Anthem.
65. My biggest moment of celebrity – I played as Lancelot on school play. Monty Python style.
66. My one favorite item of clothing? – Currently my plain black T-Shirt
67. The one item I would take to the deserted island? – Fire
68. The one person I loved who nobody knew? – Chuck Norris
69. The most fun sporting event I ever attended? – 3rd year inter-school meet. I broke my right knee after colliding with my striker’s knee on a Sipa game.
70. The favorite place I have ever traveled to where I’d spend my whole life if I could? – BACOLOD!
71. The most amazing creature I’ve ever seen – Octopus
72. My favorite moment as a sister/brother – When my brother ate the scrambled eggs I cooked. Long story, but YAY!
73. My favorite moment as a spouse or significant other – Being there for my one and only Darlyn. :3
74. My favorite moment as a daughter/son – Passing out drunk in front of my mom.
75. My favorite flowers to receive in a delivery? -Purple, yellow and white Malaysian Mums.
76. My favorite cooking or kitchen smell? – Curry.
77. The most significant change I’ve had to go through and how it made me better – Being able to release my inner calm after an eternity of meditation inside my recollection chamber.
78. My “biggest deal” memory of childhood – Trading my Foil Houndour to Foiled Zapdos.
79. My favorite way to spend a rainy day? – Catching mudfishes outside our house.
80. Favorite word – aa
81. Best Sunday afternoon I ever had? – Dozing off and doing nothing.
82. Favorite ice cream ever and from where? – Gelato! Bacolod!
83. Favorite musician? – Aaron Lewis
84. Favorite famous person I’ve admired, living or dead, whom I’d like to meet? – Jackie Chan
85. Favorite environmental sound – Rain 🙂
86. Favorite person to take a walk on a beach or in the woods with? – Darlyn :3
87. Best time I’ve had playing with a pet – Playing stare at each other with Bimbo.
88. Nicest thing I’ve ever done for a little kid? – Not make him/her cry for a day.
89. Favorite TV rerun I could watch 50 times? – Gundam 00 Final Episode
90. Favorite item no one knows I own? – A five-year old Sugus candy.
91. My favorite story/experience of the paranormal? – Seeing “her” outside my room.
92. The one “splurge” grocery item I have never yet splurged on? – Panda Cheese.
93. The most competent activity I do? – Drawing on a computer using only a mouse.
94. The one food item I can never run out of? – Salt
95.  The most fun game I’ve ever played? – DotA
96. Favorite name for a boy – Isaac
97. Favorite name for a girl – Canaan
98. Favorite outdoor activity – Walking around town, looking at thousands of faces I pass by and think of how many of those faces I’ve met before that I just forgotten after I went back home.
99. Favorite brand of soap – Old Spice
100.  Favorite dream I ever had – I became an astronaut.
101. If I had one hour to live, what would I spend it doing? – Probably just smoke coffin nails till the last second just to chill out. I don’t want to stress myself and feel bad or discontented before the time runs out for whatever reason.

Book Review: Looking for Alaska & Back to being an Internet Nerd

Finally, a time to be active on blogging again. Yay!! I’ve been quite busy recently. Mom came back from Australia so I have to spend more time with her, I got an online job, going back and forth on trips and the usual things happening if you’re busy (no shit Sherlock @_@). I wrote this post’s draft about a month ago but I never had the time to finish and publish this. I’m really quite happy that I’m able to touch my own WordPress site again. So much for all the WordPress websites I develop for my client. -_-

As promised a long time ago, I am going post my thoughts about the young adult title Looking for Alaska by John Green. This is the second young adult novel that I’ve ever read. This title was part of the 5 books recommendation my girlfriend Darlyn gave to me. By this time, I’ve read other young adult titles including The Fault in our Stars, also by John Green. The Boneshaker by Cherrie Priest. A zombie-steampunk themed novel and I’m currently reading The Book Thief by Markus Zusak and Paper Towns by John Green.

You probably notice that most of the titles I’m currently on are YA themed and I said a long time ago that YA is not my type of genre. Well this all changed because of my Beloved Half’s awesome recommedations! She made me realize that not all young adult novels are about sparking-vampire-with-a-shaved-armpit-teenage-boys and impossible-in-life-(really)-love-stories. There many (as in many!!) titles are are wonderful, even touching and life changing. Especially, John Green’s work which makes you think deeper and gather so many thoughts after reading. One title that made me rage (a good kind of rage) is  Looking for Alaska. At first I thought I liked Eleanor & Park, but this one is far from only being liked. I LOVE this book.

As a summary: Before. Miles “Pudge” Halter’s whole existence has been one big nonevent, and his obsession with famous last words has only made him crave the “Great Perhaps” (François Rabelais, poet) even more. Then he heads off to the sometimes crazy, possibly unstable, and anything-but-boring world of Culver Creek Boarding School, and his life becomes the opposite of safe. Because down the hall is Alaska Young. The gorgeous, clever, funny, sexy, self-destructive, screwed-up, and utterly fascinating Alaska Young, who is an event unto herself. She pulls Pudge into her world, launches him into the Great Perhaps, and steals his heart. – Goodreads

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“When adults say, “Teenagers think they are invincible” with that sly, stupid smile on their faces, they don’t know how right they are. We need never be hopeless, because we can never be irreparably broken. We think that we are invincible because we are. We cannot be born, and we cannot die. Like all energy, we can only change shapes and sizes and manifestations. They forget that when they get old. They get scared of losing and failing. But that part of us greater than the sum of our parts cannot begin and cannot end, and so it cannot fail.”

Thomas Edison’s last words were ‘It’s very beautiful over there’. I don’t know where there is, but I believe it’s somewhere, and I hope it’s beautiful.

When Darlyn suggested this book for me, I have no idea who John Green was or why was this book titled Looking for Alaska. My first thought was maybe Alaska ran away or something. Or maybe it’s about a group of teenagers that made a journey to Alaska. I was all wrong.

What made me love this book are the thoughts that gathered up inside my head after reading. The questions left that makes you think of the possible answers yourself. The tragedy that happened. Is it really Miles’ Great Perhaps or just a start? What if the inevitable never happened? Would they still be the same? So many possibilities to think about. And I love how the ambiance of the story suddenly changed from wherever-the-wind-blows-type to serious in the middle.

Anyways. I’m giving this book a 5/5 for the rage it gave me. And I’m passing my recommendation to those who haven’t read the book yet.

A little spoiler: I want Miles to end up with Lara in the end. I really love Lara as a character. -_-

Note: My next book review would probably be Paper Towns or The Book Thief. Which, I haven’t yet finished. And also, many thanks to Darlyn for recommending me these wonderful books and for expanding my variety when it comes to reading. Love Love Much!! X0x0xO!! Forgive me but I feel so loved in so many ways by the time I finish this post. 🙂

Book Review: Joyland by Stephen King

I’ve only read a few Stephen King books: The Darktower Series, 11/22/63, It, Pet Sematary and a little bit of Shawshank Redemtion (listened to a few chapters on an audiobook). I liked the adventures of Roland in The Darktower series, and scared shitless of Pennywise the Clown on It. Joyland is the first non-horror, fantasy-themed novel I’ve read when it comes to Stephen King. I got really interested the first time I saw this book at a bookstore. The vintage looking cover featuring a woman on a green(sexy) dress holding a camera and with a tagline: “Who dares enter the house of fear?”. At first I thought this would be another Stephen King horror story. But I was wrong, and I never regretted reading this. This is probably the first Stephen King novel that touched me the most.

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Set in a small-town North Carolina amusement park in 1973, Joyland tells the story of the summer in which college student Devin Jones comes to work as a carny and confronts the legacy of a vicious murder, the fate of a dying child, and the ways both will change his life forever. 

The story centers to Devin Jones’s ordinary summer life turned into an unforgettable memory in a theme park called Joyland. As you progress further into the book, you will be introduced to each of the characters, delve deeper into their background and personalities, and how they play a role in Devin’s life. The plot has interesting twists and turns. And the entire book have really really good lines that could zap you in the heart.

“When you’re twenty-one, life is a roadmap. It’s only when you get to be twenty-five or so that you begin to suspect that you’ve been looking at the map upside down, and not until you’re forty are you entirely sure. By the time you’re sixty, take it from me, you’re fucking lost.”

“Those are things that happened once upon a time and long ago, in a magical year when oil sold for eleven dollars a barrel. The year I got my damn heart broke. The year I lost my virginity. The year I saved a nice little girl from choking and a fairly nasty old man from dying of a heart attack (the first one, at least). The year a madman almost killed me on a Ferris wheel. The year I wanted to see a ghost and didn’t…although I guess at least one of them saw me. That was also the year I learned to talk a secret language, and how to dance the Hokey Pokey in a dog costume. The year I discovered that there are worse things than losing the girl. The year I was twenty-one, and still a greenie.”

I really loved the idea how King developed the story.  How Devin Jones’ s life changed in such a short period of time. How he was jealous of other people that could see ghosts which he was not able to. How his obsession to a past murder case turned into a tragic event. And how he was able to overcome his broken heart and gave light to other people’s life.  Most reviews I’ve found voted this book down. But I love this book, and I could relate to most of Devin’s mid-20’s frustrations. And I love Mike (not in a gay kind of way, but in a touchy feely kind) who is so cheerful, thankful, and positive despite of all his misfortunes in life.

This book strays from his thriller/mystery and horror genre but you can still see Stephen King on this book. A fresh new Stephen King in my opinion. I gave this a 5/5.

Journey to the Center of my Character

When someone creates a blog for the first time, the very first thing to be published is the “About” page. That’s simplest or easiest thing to write and you have to introduce yourself first. It’s a common tradition I think. But not for me. I find it tiresome as I don’t exactly know how to describe myself in a few words or in a short paragraph. It’s like I’m made of multiple characters crushed together into one mediocre-handsome being. Really. But something came to my mind that I have to make this post. Maybe, its conscience because my “About Me” page is lamely composed of a single sentence or two. Or maybe because I just feel like it.

The Wonderkid

The Wonderkid when not on burial clothes

I’ve taken interest on a “lot” of things. My tastes are all jumbled up like different pieces of jigsaw puzzle trying to fit together on a single frame called personality. Most people find me weird but cozy to be with as I’m an easy to approach and befriend kind of person. My friends say that I easily fit with everyone I know because I can relate to most things that we talk about. It’s not like I’m the Gandalf of my group, but can hold my own when it comes to discussions (mostly random). As for me, I could say that I’m a jackass when it comes hanging out with my friends. I make a lot of jokes and often play pranks on them. It’s all for fun and games but nobody looses an eye in the end.

As for my tastes: When it comes to music, I’m a big fan of alternative and heavy metal bands but you can find jpop and love songs on my playlist. In terms of clothing, you can always see me in Sabbath-black T-shirts and jeans on a pair of Chuck Norris Taylor shoes. I got so used to wearing the same clothing statement everyday that I don’t feel like myself anymore if I wore a different colored shirt. I fancy anything that looks like a work of art ranging from sexy geishas to hardcore graphics to sculptures of a deranged cat wrapped in bacon and topped with potato salad.

I have a soft spot for cute things but I’m also a disciplined boxer. I love dinosaurs the same as I love the entire solar system. I am a web developer as well as a good scribbler when it comes to me and my colored pencil. I love anything related to technology and I love reading books. I code with precision but when it comes to road directions, I’d probably get lost and end up in the middle of the ocean. My favorite books? Well it’s a rumble jumble in a bookshelf jungle. I’m mostly a sci-fi and action reader with a slight taste of young adult titles (courtesy of my girlfriend Darlyn).

I love cooking and I enjoy good food as much as I love alcohol. I have a huge phobia of worms but I keep dozens of them to feed my pet tarantulas. Thanks to whoever invented the tweezers so I don’t get to hold those creepy wiggling things. You might say caterpillars are cute but I’m really really really terrified of them. I enjoy playing video games even though I’m the village idiot when it comes FPS games. My outdoor sports? I played volleyball and Sipa when I was in high school. I love anything related to occult and supernatural but I’m scared shitless when left alone in the dark. I also love pandas and with little interest on venomous snake. I’m also a 24 year old Pokemon guy.

Yessss

Well, these make up a chunk of who I am. I could’a wrote more about myself but my brain is at it’s limit. My mental process is breaking down and I’m starting to believe that babies were delivered by flying storks.

I can’t swim.